"Notable People", "For You", and "About the Site" currently do not work nor some of the pages in "The Galaxies" since I have not created them yet.

02.10.06
You know, I completely forgot I had this "online journal". I did until Miisuchenfuri came up to me and she asked me "Daddy, I was wondering if you still liked the internet? I never see you on it anymore." Then I remembered this journal.

Things have been okay, I suppose. My flute's getting really old, so I'm going to get a nice new model. I'm going shopping for one tomorrow. Maybe I'll pick up a piece or two to play around with.

I went to do karaoke sometime back in January with Nakken. He surprised me. His voice is actually pretty good, albeit a bit untrained. It annoyed me though that he made me hold the microphone with him. That was somehow uncomforting.

That bastard Zen signed me up for one of those "Miss Manners" classes. The whole band encouraged me to go. They probably think it's funny. Jerks.

12.03.05
I'm really not sure why, but I just feel like writing today. There's just something about words and language.

Miisuchenfuri pointed out that we have next to no technology in our house. Sure we have running water, but that's because Soluna set it up. Soluna's house has a lot of technology since she knows what she's doing, but I rely on magic. I do not own a television set, or any extensions for it like a video player or a console or anything. I do not own a telephone. Our house is lit by Light magic. I own a computer only because it makes Miisuchenfuri's schoolwork easier, and I use magic to power it instead of electricity because our house doesn't have any electricity. Miisuchenfuri likes to compare our house sometimes to other's houses.

The other day I actually went into the Cave. Our designs that we painted so many of millions of years ago are still there, the same as they were when they were first painted since theyre's nothing to chip away at them. The cave is so small, but it's so important. On the left of the entrance is a cave full of a precious gem called Rai, which is blood-red. It's huge. Then to the right is the cave with our designs and a small waterfall, and if one goes down the middle there's a plethora of crystal as well as a path to a place where, if needed, one may go to Heaven. It's truly gorgeous.

What if I were to get a pet for Miisuchenfuri? A dog or a cat of some kind?

Yesterday it snowed. This is the first time I can remember since before my eye was gouged out that it snowed on this planet. Miisuchenfuri is a lot more used to snow than I, as the planet her school is located on gets snow three months of the year. Sometimes, our planet seems stuck in time. It very rarely rains, even rarer is when it snows. I can't even remember the last time we had a thunderstorm. Anyway, I digress.

So I woke up this morning and I decided to walk Miisuchenfuri to school, since I haven't gotten to see her much lately. So I step outside and everything's in a medium-thin layer of white. I yelled and asked what the hell the white powder on the ground was. Miisuchenfuri laughed lightly and asked me if I had seriously never heard of snow. That's when it struck me. It actually snowed on our planet. After Miisuchenfuri got home from school, we got bundled up and went and made a snowman. Then we had a snowball fight, which Enika intervened and Miisuchenfuri and Enika targeted me. It was the most fun I've had in a long time, I hope the snow doesn't melt anytime soon.

About a little less than a week ago, I turned into Makaieika for a couple days. Miisuchenfuri, as soon as Enika was able to let her know, stayed with her friend Marina for the duration of my change. Enika herself was treated horribly. I can't believe myself when I am him. My love was treated like personal property instead of another living being.

My relationship with Makaieika is...difficult to explain. I am Makaieika and Makaieika is me. I remember everything Makaieika does and Makaieika remembers everything I do. The only thing that really changes mentally when "Makaieika" or "Jakoku" are present are basically our opinions of people. Enika is my lover. Enika is Makaieika's property. Soluna is a meaningless whore to me. Soluna is a major threat to Makaieika.

My physical changes are very long, flowy hair, longer nails, and my gouged eye is replaced. When I am Jakoku, the eye is again lost, but my hair and nails remain. I've since trimmed my nails, but I really need to get around to cutting my hair. It's still really, really long. I like how it looks but it's slightly annoying.

Wow, I really need to stop rambling, don't I?

11.26.05
Miisuchenfuri's school had open house today, and I went. It was...interesting. The kids were dead afraid of me, the parents gave me weird looks, and some teachers were *totally* enthused there was an Original Creation at their school, and other teachers were wary.

Miisuchenfuri had some pretty nice projects to display, and I enjoyed looking everything over and meeting her teachers, who had nothing but nice things to say about my little girl. I'm so proud of her.

I tried a new food today called "cotton candy". Miisuchenfuri's Foods class made it. I've never tasted anything like it. It looked really gross, but when I actually tried it, I really enjoyed it. It sorta melts in your mouth and it's not overly sweet like I thought it would be, though it could lose a little sweetness. It made my teeth blue.

I also tried something called Rock Candy today. It's sweet, but one eats it a lot slower than cotton candy. It's really good. Miisuchenfuri tells me these are things you can find in an every day candy shop. I've never seen them, but then again I haven't gone to a candy shop in hundereds of thousands of years, so...

Maybe I should keep more candy around the house.

11.12.05
Today's just been a contemplative day, nothing really out of the ordinary.

We had an extra band practice today since we have a concert soon and we're a little underprepared for once, it seems. You shoulda seen Master Niko when Zen threw his one of his sticks and Master Niko managed to be in its path. I seriously thought Master Niko was going to beat him with a bass drum mallet. Also this one Clarinetist was like "Oh, ew, I've been playing on a moldy reed! Haha, no wonder it tasted funny!" That's fucking disgusting. Take the damn reed off the mouthpiece every night and clean your instrument once in a while, jeez.

We're playing this one song that's super fast. Even Io and I are having problems with it. The quarter note's at 176 and we have sixteenth notes. For all you non musical people, tap your hand as fast as you can and we basically have to play four notes inbetween each tap. Who writes this stuff? Seriously, they must have woken up in the morning and been like "I think I'm going to go write a piece to torture woodwinds today!" Gaah. It's so hard.

Random thoughts of the day:
- I have slept with Ashina, who's slept with Soluna, who's slept with the Goddess knows how many people. That means I have all Soluna's phantom sex partners. That's really fucking disgusting.

- What if you were to get cut all over your body then take a citrus bath? That'd really hafta hurt.

- What's the difference between a bastard and a loveable bastard? They're both bastards, so how is one magically loveable?

- If you took everything Skyde's ever burned and made it into one big burst of energy, I bet you'd have enough energy to fuel an entire planet for a year.

- Have you ever noticed when there's a villian or someone inbetween a villian and neutral in a story there's usually a small child to help him make the right desicions?

That's quite enough rambling for today. Good night, everyone.

11.03.05
Today was an...interesting day. When I wake up, the first thing I see is that Niaralai Mienahli sitting on the edge of my bed. So I leap out of bed and ask him what the fuck he's doing on my property, and he replies that he was told to get me up, because the council needed me. I told him to fuck off, and he told me using curse words are bad, so I attempted to punch him, but he got away from me. Damn Niaralai.

So I go to the council, who bores the hell out of me, and I finally get back home. Guess what's waiting for me? A surprise birthday party. It's funny how Enika remembered my birthday, yet I did not. 10/31 is my birthday. So I got a party Enika spent nearly the whole day getting together; cake, guests, and everything.

How old am I? I sure as hell don't remember.

Enika promised me a very special birthday present.

I love her.

10.05.05
I'm in a bit of a dilema and I don't know what to do. I really am thinking of proposing to Enika, but...Original Creations just don't get married. Of course I've gotten a few people's opinions on this, but...they don't really help.
Soluna: You can't have sex with just anyone anymore if you're married!
Go to hell, whore.
Nakken: Hee hee, that'd be cute.
Oh, shut up, queer.
Ashina: Oh...um..really...you...uhhhh...
That merits a good old-fashioned eye rolling.

It's sort of something you really have to think about, you know? I really want to ask, but there is the fact marriage is just basically your unity on a piece of paper, and is really only beneficial for mortals, but...it's also publically announcing vows, announcing your love...a wonderful ceremony of celebration. ...I need a nap or something.

~Jakoku

09.20.05
Miisuchenfuri has informed me that her Junior High School is so much better than her Primary School. I'm so happy for her. I only regret I cannot beat up the children who pick on her.

Today I had a meeting with that despicable Feiha king, Niaralai Mienaeahli. All he does is mock me, I swear. He takes everything I say, and twists it into some sort of weird anaology as to why my idea won't work. Why does he mock me?!

I dislike the whole Feiha race, mainly because they took one of the planets made for the Miisai for their own. I don't mind the race itself (for the most part, Niaralai is a major exception) but I don't like their invasion. Of course, I never asked their reason, so my hate is probably unbacked.

He also has this assistant named Eostral who I swear to the Goddess is a woman, or at least I thought he was until I fell into him and found out he doesn't have breasts. My Goddess. He would get along with Nakken so well. They could talk clothes and hair and make-up...well, the make-up talk would go something like "Oh, I have this friend named Jakoku, he would look sooo good in black eyeshadow!" "Oh, really?! Let me give you some! Tee hee! I bet he'll look great!" "Oh, he must be so ADORABLE! Tee hee hee!"

...Ugh, I feel violated.

~Jakoku

09.01.05
Miisuchenfuri started Junior High School. That boy is in the eighth grade. I admit I'm a bit uncomfortable about them being in the same school, but I suppose it's better for her to be with more people, especially since Marina doesn't share a few of her classes.

Because I, the hated bastard Creation, am her father, she had to put up with quite a bit of harassment from her classmates. The nicknames they gave her made me want to kill the children. Brutally maim and kill them. "Hell's child", "The offspring of Satan", "The devil's daughter"...

I tried to talk to the school administrators, but it wasn't quite a talk, more like a threat, so I don't think they quite took me seriously...I can't believe I failed like that. Losing my head at such an important time.

Either way, I hope with her school transfer, she'll get something of a fresh start. At least she'll always have two loyal friends. Even if I don't like Kai that much. Well, I suppose when she comes home, I'll learn what her school is like.

~Jakoku

08.25.05
Nakken came over and stayed for a few days. He ended up sleeping over. I know what you're thinking. NOTHING HAPPENED. He slept in the bed, I slept on the floor. FAR, FAR AWAY FROM EACH OTHER. DON'T THINK OTHERWISE. I'LL CONSUME YOUR HEART. We're just friends.

I may not update for a while, my job is beating the hell out of me. I'm quite behind.

~Jakoku

08.22.05
We've been getting Miisuchenfuri all of her back-to-school stuff for when she starts the sixth grade next year. She's so exited. That Kai is starting eighth grade next year. Unfortunantely, that means they'll be at the same school. Damn it.

I decided to do some cleaning around the house, I was rather bored and Enika wanted the library to herself today to do some quiet research, which I of course happily obliged her.

I never knew I kept so many dead bodies in the cellar. I cleaned those out right away.

On a bit of a lighter note, I found a room with a couple hundered more books and quite a few dusty scrolls in it, I think it was a potential library I had long ago abandoned and forgotten. They were all written in Miisai-Nee too, further proving my theory. I'm sure I'll have ever so much fun hauling those into the current library and placing them, even with magic.

Nakken said he'd visit tomorrow, that will be fun, I'm sure. And I swear to you I'm not cleaning just for him.

~Jakoku

08.11.05
Hmm, I got better around the first of the month, but it seems that I somehow forgot to update. Well, I'm sure I wasn't too horribly missed, but Miisu helped me get better. I'm touched she took time out of her own when even Ashina was here instead of playing with her friends during her summer.

I wonder what she's been doing with that boy Kai? She's gone out to play for the past couple of days, and she always comes back giggly. I wonder what's been going on. As her father it is my place to worry, but I'm sure if I ask, she'll be a little sad, so I think I'll wait for her to tell me.

Otherwise, I've spent my own summer days mostly doing my job of placing souls and reading. It surprises me. My library is full with hundereds of thousands of books in both Common Langage, Miisai-Nee, and other languages, but I have read perhaps only two hundered and thirty or so of the books. I like reading, it's extremely relaxing.

In fact, I think I'm going to conntinue the book I was just reading about fifteen minutes ago.

~Jakoku

07.14.05
Damn it I'm sick. It's a pretty nasty fever. I haven't felt this sick in years, I thought I was going to die. Miisuchenfuri's been taking care of me, but I can barely stand. Soluna said I'd be better in a couple weeks. Damn it.

07.02.05
Miisuchenfuri got out of school yesterday! Miisai school runs from September 1st to June 30th, and I do believe it is different for you Humans on Earth. I spent the whole day with her yesterday! I treated her to ice cream and got her some books as well, to give her a head start when she goes into Junior High next year. Somehow, I feel quite old. I mean I am, but I've never felt like this before.

I also had to answer Miisuchenfuri's questions earlier in the year, around November. They seem to haunt me now, late at night after her school term has ended. Some of them were quite hard to answer, especially the ones that contained the word "why". "Daddy, why did you massacre so many people on Planet Len?" "Daddy, why did you kill those hundreds of thousands of people on Planet Keika?" "Daddy, why did you kill almost everyone in the capital of Planet Leur?"

I never, ever thought I'd regret those massacres until I saw the look on her face when she asked those questions. I had gone over the massacres with her before and given her answers when she was in third grade, but after she learned about them school (And believe me, all the school systems make me the "ultimate plague of our nebula") she came up with the questions all over again.

It's so hard to answer her. When she asks with tears streaming down her face "Daddy, why did you kill so many innocent people? I know we've gone over this, but I still don't understand. Why?" I feel horrible and unsure. I hate how my past puts such a burden on her.

The truth is I don't know why, exactly. I believe I was lost, confused, angry, and hurt. I didn't know who I was or where I belonged. So I had to take it out on innocents. The third massacre actually had to do with pride, though I was too shameful to plain out tell Miisuchenfuri that.

Ah, I ramble, don't I? Well today Miisuchenfuri slept in, and she missed breakfast, and nearly lunch! She came down to the kitchen just as I was getting ready to clean up. The poor girl must have been so tired. After lunch, I read to her until dinner, then we ate.

Ashina was called out the Mishiga Galaxy to settle some disputes between Planet Retaro and Planet Minta, and she does have the most common sense and logical thinking. She should only be gone for a week or so. She's usually called out at least once a year, whether to the High Council or some planets. She's famous for peacemaking. Miisuchenfuri is so proud of this fact.

It's late at night now again and she's sleeping peacefully. I predict she'll be sleeping in again, though hopefully not as late. I think I'll bring her breakfast in bed tomorrow. I think she'll like that.

~Jakoku

06.27.05
So, I suppose I've gotten this "online journal" or "blog" or whatever. Miisuchenfuri, my sweet daughter, talked me into it. Of course I would at least take a look, I'd do about anything for her. Miisu is currently in the 5th grade, and doing quite well.

My name is Jakaishurimesharasenemnioku, but I suppose Jakoku works. That is the only nickname I will let myself be called, however. Unless Miisu says it. I love that girl, my daughter. She's showed me love and life where I only thought there was hate and death. Hmm...that sounds sappy for someone like me.

Well, today Miisu brought her friend Marina over, which is fine. But that BOY...Kai...had to come too. Kai kept hitting on Miisu! I hate it. He calls it "love", and I call it "empty desire". I think I'll hurt him if he continues this.

I ended up forcing him out early. Kishmal kou, Kai. Hmm...I don't think I should use such language. Anyway, it doesn't matter. Kai is gone, we took Marina home, and Miisu is sleeping happily in bed. I should get to bed too, if I hope to wake up in time to make breakfast tomorrow.

~Jakoku